Suicide rates among homosexuals are higher than those among heterosexu
als. This article suggests that gay youth who attempt suicide represen
t a special case in which the meanings associated with life and death
are worth exploration. In light of the phenomenological paradigm, we a
re interested in how sixteen gay men who attempted suicide perceived l
ife and death before the actual suicide attempt and how these percepti
ons are linked to the attempt. Orbach's model specifies four categorie
s of attitudes toward life and death: attraction and aversion to life
and attraction and aversion to death. Only three categories of Orbach'
s model emerged from the interview data. ''Attraction to life'' was mi
ssing and the analysis attempts to account for this gap.