We introduce the history of a 27 year old woman who lost her mother by suic
ide at the age of one year. Grown up in the fathers family she came to know
the mothers suicide with 14 years. In the same time she had the first cont
act with the two half-brothers from the mother's side. In this ,,new " fami
ly they discussed open about the suicide, what she perceived as a relief an
d important for her personal development. The consequences of the rarely st
udied tabooisation of the family suicide could have impact for the intercou
rse with the relatives of suicide victims in the clinical work.